Monday, May 28, 2012

Craigslist Experience

In my desperate attempt to relieve myself of my virgin status, I like everyother man in need of m4m relief have deicided to check out Craigslist. I posted an ad before when I was 16 but my post was removed, I suppose some people on Craigslist have concious morals and respect for the law.

Mostly I've been reading ads looking for an insatible dominant aggressive top willing to pound with vengence an eager black chub bottom ready to be the subject of an intense gorilla animalistic fuck session with grunts and the smell of ass juice filling the air, you know the way every bottom dreams there first time to be when they're either ferociously fingering themselves or fucking themselves with their automated machine dildo. Through my readings I've become familiar even an aficianado of the lingo and customizing of ads on Craigslist: DrugDiseaseFree, t for trans, hwp meaning height weight proportionate, ltr or looking for long term relationship, or my favorite nsa no strings attached, always ask for stats and pics, ads with a picture usally get the most viewers and replies, short and simple ad titles in all caps grab attention, and sadly in the Miami area tops are a rare commodity (there is a bottom surplus here!), and slighty even more sad, the tops you do come across are either painstainlkly dl, seriously so down low they freak when they become suspicious of their own sexual orientation, or married and severely discrete, I never signed up to be a manstress or a homewrecker - saldy enough I find myself in the current situation trying to get a married man to fuck the shit out of me, inundate his wedlocked cum in me until it oozes slowly out my holes and stuff it back where its leaking.

I don't know if any of my ads are still up but I can say that I do find it sensational having my black ass exposed to the open market. I find comfort and even pride looking at the shapely figure of my thick fat ass. When I receive complements, I smile coyly, but in my mind I'm bostfully saying "you're damn right its nice, better yet its maginificant" - lol my ass has a huge ego, I keep looking in a window shops to see the reflected curvature of my ass through shorts and jeans. I now have an assorted array of ass photos in different positions, locations, and even wet & dry, mostly thanks to the married stud I am talking to or as of now waiting for to initiate the conversation. Our "relationship" has now been for the last couple of weeks text messages back and forth with him telling me vugarly and antagonizely how he wants to fuck me every which way, have me hold my ass checks apart as he plunges into me, him savouring every delicious lick and bite of my tight pucker, me gagging on his big thick dick as he holds my head, and ravashing on his strong muscluar ass. He knows how to make a black boy blush, that he most certainly does, but what he doesn't know how to do is make these provoking fantasies into fruition. Seriously dude fuck me now, fuck me here, fuck me there, FUCK! Fuck me infront of your wife if thats the only place we can but just fuck me already. These dreams, these words you send me leave me waning, losing myself in wanting for more, gripping the edge of my bed lustfully in ecstasy. I need you in me, feel your weight on top of me, hold your being, feel your smooth cock head push its way through my tight ass, and permeate my body, at first, moving hard and vigoriously as I become adjusted and later fucking me until I am breathless in still motion with only my hole and ass moving to accomodate and match the movement of your dick and pelvic thrusts, pin me down so resistance to your endowment is minimal and let me embrace the wroughness that is your body.

[Sir ethier fuck me or leave me alone. What you're putting me and your wife through is destroying us, at least let her have the opportunity to say she knows you're fucking a man instead of her having to live in her doubting suspicions. and let me live or continue to move on rather than bidding waiting by the phone in want of some form of contact with you.]

Despite this one pending experience, I do, however, have two more craigslist experiences. In some sort of fashion I should be disgusted and ashamed of my benefactors but the thrill of living and want for experience has allowed me to cloud my better judgement and persue my most discrepant conquests. The first I'll share and the other I'll hopefullly have a chance to elaborate, even more hopefully I can elaborate on the physically sexual experience with MarriedMan. The first of my contacts was on May 2, 2012. After exhanges of address/photo/number, I found myself on a jitney, miling closer and closer to his home anxious that I was finally going to get fucked and feel the sexual desiring touch of a man. When I walked closer to his door, my heart was thudding loudly, and as I knocked on the door, it pounded with the same vociferous volume as the knocks on the door. He opened it, and to my too naive surprise it was not the vision of a man at his prime that I saw but the dusty image of an surving grandpa. In my head I ran back the 5+ miles back home, screaming, vomiting, turning over my gay card and making a vow to woman soley. But what happened in reality was I stepped in guided by the want of some sort of experience. It was nerve wrecking being in this situation but I somehow managed to drain the person that I am and create a facade that was immune to the old man infront of me. We laid on his bed, touching, gripping , and holding. His kiss and mouth were old thin flat rough and slimey compared to my young full wet soft lips. I touched and jerked his dick which seemed to stay flacid while my dick was bouncing hard in my shorts during the ride over and on and off while on the bed. He rolled on top of me, thrusting his hips on my ass through my shorts, which i never took off, but I giggled, laughing as his touches on my hyper-sensitive skin. I rolled him over and began to rub my dick through my shorts on him, loving the idea of doing this with someone younger more elastic. After a while, we just laid in bed, me asking quesions, listening to him answer them as his tried to harden his old friend. By 8;00 (after an hour of being there), I made some excuse to leave and went home. The bus ride back a sense of despondency came over me and I felt a sicken motion in my stomach, the knot feeling of doing something that was incredible hurtful to myself and health. This feeling lasted the night and morning after, I washed myself thoroughly but somehow couldn't wipe the feeling of filth that covered the areas that felt the weight of his presense.On my bed, I laid petrified in fetal position.

I don't regret what I did, I don't even find it disgusting. I was in need; after 8 years of wanting and desiring, I finally manifested the desires to be with a man. I might not have done it the way every young boy does but dammit I did. What I learned from it was I definetly am gay, and I need the arms of a man to embrace me, hold me tight, dick in ass, as we lay to the silence that pentitrates the room in darkness.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Porn Store

It's been a while since I've been on but I blame my financial status rather than my interest level. How are you guys, so much has changed? Accounts are deleted and recent posts I've read are contemplating termination :(. Everyone seems to either be in the work force, in school (college), or my favorite, a sex fiend. It's going to take some time to readjust my reading list, removing the dead accounts and looking for new blogs to jerk and relate to. And most importantly Happy Thanksgiving, may we all be happy for what we have and make no regrets as time flows and we change.

I recently turned 18 so as a right of passage of every male (gay or straight) I went inside the infamous, and once ” you can look but don't touch” adult store by my house. When I was walking to the entrance I felt scared that someone I know would be either inside or outside watching me going in and waiting to see what I come out with. I don't know when that strange sense of paranoia will go away but it really needs to. when I went inside, all my excitement died. It looked like a regular store with dvds on selves, the cheap or clearance sections and no moans from the back as a guy gets a mind blowing orgasm from getting sucked through a glory hole.

I don't know where my sudden boost of confidence came from but I asked the guy behind the counter where was the gay section. The implication from that weirton was that I'm gay or interested in guys and that is the first time I've ever came close to telling someone who is tangible and not virtual. As soon as I said it I bit my tongue, now was the time I would see how someone would react to this.he said behind you and a soon as I turn around I saw a massive black dick and had to take a step back.he chuckled at my shock and said something witty. No harassment, no disapproval, just a friendly atmosphere. It felt good.

After I saw the premium dvd titles in the section I moved around the rest of store. As I was walking through the store I was getting hard just looking at the covers, sex was everywhere and I was enjoying it. I went to the cheaper dvd section end my rock was now a tent pole as I saw the titles. I think I would of came then and there if I kept flipping through the dvds looking for the gay dvds. I was breathing hard and had move. Around the cheap dvds were the toys. I saw costumes, whips, cake penis shape cooking pans, vibrators, dildoes, strap-ons, balls model vaginas, dicks, and ass holes. I fingered the vagina to see what it felt like and after three jabs i was bored. I was contemplating the dildoes or the vibrator but wasn't sure how discreet I could be walking through the streets with a 6 incher poking and imprinting on the bag. I've decided to get one of the two next time I visit because my friend bought one (but she's a she).

Continuing to explore I went to the back section where the video booths are. Inside the booths were a chair, garbage basket, a 4 screen tv above a single screen tv, numbers 1-4 with a up or down button and the thing to put the cash in. I put a dollar in for five minutes and searched for the gay videos.the buttond felt sticky and I was disturbed by that but that didn't stop me from searching for something decent and pulling out my dick and jerking off to something of quality. The best I could see that was showing was a black guy with a massive dick forcing it inside of a buffed white guy, btw I like videos where the button is muscular and not skinny or twink looking. After looking at the dvd covers, the toys, the gay section it was easy for me to blow and I licked any evidence I had...maybe next time I'll come in with some paper napkins but then again why change what works. Relieved I threw my head back in ecstasy and notice the boarded hole in the wall and figured they didn't want people to have glory holes on the wall. my mouth controlled by the sexual freedom released from being in the store and I pictured myself giving someone a blow job then and there. As my lips and mouth walls were moistening I grabbed onto reality and went outside the booth. I noticed another both was being used and the door was slightly opened and I didn't know what to I walk away and leave him to his business our do I complete his transaction for him. He decided and closed the door leaving it again slightly askew. Disappointed it wasn't an obvious open invitation I moved on.

I decided I would buy one of the cheap dvds. I decided to get the one with the white guy in the fireman outfit with his shlong hanging out looking suductively at you. After watching it a few times I can't say I'm disappointed with my choice. 6 hours of sex who would only thing is the quality of the dvd and that it jumps through some scenes and that the actors aren't all endowed like the front cover guy. Again not complaining it has all of my requirements: rimming, sucking, fucking, stroking, hot asses, dicks, nipple play, moaning, deep throat kissing, dirty talk, and minimum plot (firemen), cum, oil covered bodies, and hot faces, and muscle bodies.

Next time I go I'll ask the guy if he knows any cruising spots in that are discrete.or maybe you guys know a spot?

again happy holidays and this was a good ; p

Saturday, December 25, 2010

20 Things

The rules: 1. On a blog post, fill out 20 things that most people didn't know about you. 2. On the same post, be sure to include the rules, and a link back to the blog that tagged you 3. Tag the people you'd like to know 20 new things about.

1. I hide my loneliness and depression with humor and a smiley face.
2. I've never been kiss
3. I didn't read through the Twilight series just for the sex in Breaking Dawn (unrevised version), I did it because I liked the story line
4.Team Edward: Emotional connection before physical connection
5. I sleep in fetal position
6. The urge for me to get fucked by a guy is getting stronger and I hope, even though I say I'm pro-prostitution/pro-sluttish, it doesn't get to the point where I'll go to a dark alley with my pants down and a rainbow neon enter me sign on my asshole while blindfolded
7. Best days in the world would be cuddling naked my head rested over his chest letting his heart beat sooth me while watching rain drops fall on the windowpane on a rainy day
8. Scared I'll never publicly acknowledge these feelings and will never be able to get out of Mariah Carey's house-size closet
9. I'm in strong like with a Toxas
10. I embrace death rather than fear it or try to prolong my life
11. When I go to an out of state university, I'll be the person I always wanted, outgoing, smart, witty, gay (publicly)
12. On my bucket list: Give my dorm/apartment/fraternity roommate a mind blowing blow-job within the first weeks of the semester
13. The key to getting me to do anything is getting me drunk and giving me a Hershey Cookie and Cream chocolate bar
14. I eat my own cum
15. I go to the gym not only to get fit but to look at the sexy (and I do mean sexy) guys
16. When I like a guy or thinks he's extremely sexy i try to look away every time i see him or look down when I'm talking to him
17. I love/hate my job
18. The reason why I don't want to go to an in-state college is not because I don't like Florida so I can start a new life
19. I really do hate my mother
20. I wouldn't want to go to Pride week with friends because I think i would get a boner 24/7

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


Hey guys,

Sorry I haven't made a blog in forever....the exageration is needed there....but my internet is off and I have no other way of signing online and making a blog post without people noticing me on here. I just wanted to let you know that yes I'm still breathing.
I feel a little bold today, that's why I signed in today and downloading gay porn vids (lol ;] I'm getting bored of the ones I have at home). And I'm listening to the audio of a vintige film called Inch-by-Inch, if I wanted to be crazy I would of put the video screen up (but I'm not).
I missed you guys so much and I miss writing and reading everyone's blog. I don't know when will be the next time I'll log in (maybe when I'm feeling bold again) but know that when I do get my internet reconnected I will put in the effort to read all the posts made by those that I follow and then some.

P.S.: I'm downloading the vid on campus. i wonder if some guy behind me can see me having to readjust myself from time to time. And I'm 17 now!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Wide Open

Today I went to the Optometrist (eye doctor) and got an eye examination. My eyes are dilated and it sucks donkey balls juice. Everything is blurrier and foggier and I couldn't walk out in the sun with my eyes open. I want to sleep it off but I can't. Oh well. And if your wondering yes I do need glasses and I just found out I have astigmatism. I'm happy about that. lol I like knowing I have dysfunctions. So far it's scoliosis and now astigmatism :]

P.S.: I saw the first episode of True Blood and I'm a fan. I like the story line so far and the wild sex the vampire had with the mortal lady tied to the ceiling was hot. Would loved to be sexed up like she was. First Twilight now True Blood. I think I have a vampire/ biting fetish.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Man in Uniform

You guys I'm so f-ing excited! I got a job. I'm working at a fast food restaurant, making minimum wage, which is cool with me because I'm not picky and I love the restaurant. I don't know what I'm going to do with the money. I don't want to spend it all at once on something that's unimportant but I know myself. As soon as I get money on my hands that belongs only to me my mind goes blank and I just go on a spending spree. What I hope I do with the money is put some in the bank, buy clothes for school (the new school has no uniform policy), and try to get a gym membership. I want to get somewhere close to fit before school starts. I'm a working man :].
I'm also lusting for the manager. I think it was when he bent down to pick up a box and his pants pressed against his butt that I lost focus for a second on what was going on. I like guys with thick muscular butts especially when they are bent over. He also has a muscle body. I can honestly say while he was talking during most the paper work I stared at his muscular forearms and chest. The only thing bad about him (well not bad if it still works in my favor) is he's married. I saw the ring on his finger and I was screaming "Nooooo" in my head. I'm going to love working with him ;]. Gosh I'm really fantasy struck, not just for the body but for the personality too. He's also funny (well tries to be), friendly, and nice. Damn, I can't stop thinking about what could happen if it was only me and him in the restaurant close to closing time and he asks me to go into his office while he's sitting on his chair, legs spread open, and his friend out the hole telling me to come closer.
I'm not a home wrecker by the way. I strongly disapprove of infidelity/adultery. If you find the need to cheat on your other than you really don't need to be in a relationship with that person or marriage is not the best way to express your love for each other. And if he tells me out of the blue " wife and I made an agreement that its o.k to sleep with other people...<.< >.> what do you want to do now?" I'm going to jump on him and be submissive to him. (My friend is right, I am nasty, the good type).
xD I got a job!!!!!!!!!

P.S.: I want to say that Anonymous is so sweet and nice. It was surprising to see what you put as a comment. I hope theirs somebody in Florida, or more preferred Miami that will feel the same way. You, my manager, and my dad (for turning on the AC) put a big smile on my face today.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Naughty School Boy

Warning: Super long post

Well guys the school year is coming to a close and I'll be out of school starting Thursday. This school year has gone by fast and, even though it sucked royally, I'll miss it. A lot of things have happened this year.
Some of my friends from middle school, who went to different schools for Freshman year, transferred to my school. I liked having them their with me. They added more laughs to my life and I might slightly like this one dude.
I got a mentor this year. It was by chance but I don't regret signing up to get a mentor. The guy is cool and gay! lol It took me till like the end of the office visits to ask him if he was (even though I could tell he was gay when he shuck my hand for the first time). I wanted to tell him I think I might be gay but couldn't, still not ready to say those words out loud. I tell him the only things I know about gay guys are from Will & Grace, and that I'm disappointed he isn't a Will. I love Will from the show; he is funny,sarcastic, and just cool all around. Back to the mentor, I noticed he has a rock hard nice ass through his tight pants. I even thought about us having sex and us doing some wild, mind blowing things. I perved on an old guy ;P (hot).
I've met new people and new friends. Even though she's a girl and way shorter than me, I love me some D.F. (it's so hard to say love but when I talk about her it comes out so easily) I guess its the fact that she's an Aquarius and I'm a Libra (true Libra) that we click so well. Or maybe its the fact that every time she calls my name or I hear her voice I have a big smile on my face. I'll miss her a lot. Um...not to contradict the fact that I like dude that's a friend/J but its easy for me to express affection for a girl than a guy, I'm used to compressing those feelings for a guy so its not obvious on my face.
I took office in my academy's club and was an epic failure at it. I'll just learn from my mistakes and maybe not be so ambitious as to want a title just to feel like I'm high in status or just because I want to do something positive doesn't mean it will happen. I won't miss it. I don't like people asking me "So what are you doing as our 'office title'?" I usually responded with a "They don't tell me anything" but what I really want to respond with is "Get the fuck out my face with that shit. You and these questions about what I'm doing is not even necessary. You disgust me, go away." (thinking it over again) Yep, not going to miss it one bit.
I didn't make it to competition this year :[. I even signed up for 2 college classes just to update what I know about accounting and learn something about marketing to prepare myself before I go and what happens after I've signed up for those classes. I don't make it to state. I could of unsigned myself because they didn't start for a while but didn't want to give up the college experience. (if your wondering I got an A in both of those courses :])
This is recent in the school year but I think this girl likes me. Weird, that usually doesn't happen. All I know is she's like that guy friend who pops out of no where and just hits you hard and walks away. Sometimes she hugs me but I'm looking at her like "oh hey, girl who hits me <.<>.>...your kind of violent :). That's kinky ;p." She's a friend of the newly titled bff. She tells me I should go to their church but I say "I'm busy", which we should all no I'm not.
Formspring should get its own paragraph. I've had fun looking at my bff and her cousin's Formsprings. A whole lot of drama has happened there and I've laughed my ass off. I don't like the fact that the bff felt ashamed and hurt that her cousins will pick dick, pussy, and sex over family but she says "Their dead to me, they should drop dead" (which i think is a little far, I hate all my brothers but I don't say "they should drop dead", just "they need to get out this house") Also, on formspring, I confessed my Freshman year crush to this girl who is friends with the bff. It was a thing I did on impulse and I regret it. After I press that button, bff and the girl was trying to figure out who it was. I think bff knows it is me but its something I know she wouldn't bring up. I like that about her.
Other than J there are 2 more guys that should be mentioned for the 2009-2010 school year. One is named K. He is in my spanish class. He was once in my Pre-Calculus class but they changed his schedule. He has a sexiness to him and his eyes are hypnotizing. I 'hate' it when he has his chair turned to me and his legs opened. I don't know if he does it to see if I'm lusting for him or something but I'll never show signs of it even though I do lust. He told me he was bleeding through his penis and I thought that was weird. I was scared that one day my penis (lol penis) would bleed too. He is sexy. The other guy is S. Now he is the ex of my close friend and has my science class. His sexiness is lost in his over confidence. Well he really isn't on my sexy list but for the mass amount of girls who think he is sexy I mentioned him. He kinda makes me feel weird when he stands by me not the butterflies but "why are you so close to me" feeling.
I had an horrible itching moment during winter. It was always at the wrong moment that I felt itchy. It was killing me because it wouldn't go away. The itch came twice and I had to ask to use the bathroom and hoped it went away before I went back to class. But I thought it was bed bugs and I must of guessed right. I cleaned all of my clothes, cleaned my room from head to toe, vacuumed both sides of my bed, and cleaned and changed my sheets.
Um. theirs L. He's also in my spanish class. I think he's gay and I think he knows he's gay but denies it. He has the hand flicks and the girl "oh no you didn't" perfectly. Since I'm saying who I think is gay out of the people I know I need to mention M and G. M is overweight like me but his man boobs aren't as sexy as mines. lol I'm not really conceded. I think he's gay because it seems obvious, he's jolly jolly (twice the jolly), bouncy (mind you he has man boobs), and his "oh no you didn't" is mastered perfectly. G is a close friend and a laughing buddy. We talk about the most random things and he's a cool person. My assumption of him being gay started in middle school where I met him. Now his hand flicks, Mariah Carey high octave voice impression, "oh no you didn't" is mastered so well, he should write "How to make being gay obvious for Dummies" books. I mean come on who knows so much about Prince, ick. I love Beyonce but I still don't know much about her, just that I want her to have my babies. But it's whatever. If he or they don't want to say anything about it I totally understand. But what I don't understand is how people who make it obvious that their gay say they aren't. I mean come on people have categorized you as gay and they seem not to care. Would verifying making their assumptions be a bad thing?
Oh this needs to be mentioned. I hate it when people have sex in the stairway and they aren't clean. I don't care if you go raw or not (I would prefer raw for me) but please if you know your pussy and balls stink don't have sex or at least wash first. Come on, I smelt tuna, salmon, catfish, etc. And what's funny about the whole thing is the girls who smell like the catch of the day are the ones who complain that the stairways and the girls who were sexing it up smell bad.
I'm changing schools starting next school year. I don't think its hard to say goodbye because its never really goodbye its just hard to say I'll miss you. I will be missing my friends as I shorten the 4 years together in high school to 2 years. But where one door closes another one opens. I hope I'll make friends at the new school. I know 3 girls that are going to the same school as me so I won't be lonely. Me and 2 out of the 3 girls will be good buddies. We talk about the same things and interests are close enough to maintain the friendship. The high school were going to is different from a lot of schools in the country. All I know is I'm ready to go to Burger King for lunch on Mondays and Wednesdays, Chinese Food on Fridays, All you can buffets on Thursdays, and who knows on Tuesday. My friends think of it as selfishness for me to leave but I see it as a better opportunity and the better food is just a bonus.
The Bff/D doesn't like me changing schools. She resents it. She says she'll miss me and I'll miss her too but I don' look back, I move forward. What I don't get is why she starting to change (unconsciously) being more distant and more cold towards me? If its to make me stay then its not working. I'm not a sucker for cold hearted people, though I would like to be one. I say enjoy the time while we still have it and don't throw it away because its coming to an unexpected end.
Reading wise, I read the twilight series. I'm on team Edward all the way. I love his way of expressing his undying (no pun intended) love for Bella. I don't think Robert Patterson is sexy if your wondering. Skinny is not that sexy in my book. I really don't like the ending, there should of been a fight over their daughter. And I wished that the book I read had the descriptive sex with Edward and Bella. I read a couple of Urban Novels written by one of my favorite author. I read G-Spot, Thong on Fire, and Hittin' the Bricks. I know I know, vagina are icky but I love the story line and the sex. I would recommend reading them even if you don't like the sex in it. And last but not least I read the Tragedy of Julius Caesar. Now that book was amazing (even though their wasn't sex). I'm liking Shakespeare's work. I've read Macbeth and I know of Romeo and Juliet. That man has a way of putting words together that makes you get involved in his plays.
Academically, this is my best year so far. I haven't got a C D or F on my report card. (Maybe I'm speaking to early). Grade books closed and I know that I'll be getting 4 A's and 2 B's. For Finals I have 3 A's, 1 B, I don't know for science (i cheated my heart out on that test and I hope I get something good pls C or higher), and for science she hasn't put the grade in but I have an B on the objective exam and I don't know for the essay (which i cheated on...yay cheating :]).
I don't know what else to put (and I'm thinking your hoping their isn't more lol) That's my whole school year in one post.

P.S.: To Anonymous. I live in Florida.